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released June 30, 1996

composed, performed, programmed, produced, engineered, mixed and designed by lukas·ex
silentbeing 1996, remastered 2018

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Track Name: from my deep blue grave
from my deep blue grave

it has to go further
if it stays like this
it’ll never be enough
if it stays like this
a friend, a friend
is all i need
but you’ll have to be more
more and more and more and more and more
everything, everything
in my head
in my mind
in my bed
i’ll need you
more and more and more and more and more

so stop now
so kill me now
so throw me out of your life
forget about me
forget about everything
or you’ll have to be
more and more and more and more and more
more and more and more and more and more

leave me alone
i can never get enough
you, you, you
you’ll have to be everything
more and more
in my head
in my mind
more and more
i want you now
more and more and more and more and more

so stop now
leave me now
kill me now
forget me now
now, now
more and more and more and more and more
in my life
in my head
in my mind
i’ll never get enough
i’ll never get enough
i’ll never get
more and more and more and more and more
and more and more and more and more ....
Track Name: in no sense
in no sense

there’s no reason at all
there’s no sense in this
why half of me should leave
why the best part should go away
there’s no principle available
there’s no knowledge at hand
to explain that it’s over
to tell that it should pass away
there’s no hope for reunion
there’s no dream of holism
to work in reality
to act when you’re gone
there’s no sin to take blame
there’s no failure to accuse
for this pointless fate
for this odd behaviour
there’s nothing here on earth
there’s nobody here
to make it right
to make it good

so it has to be the will of God
Track Name: bother about
bother about

everybody hates me now
and there’s nothing to do
i’ve done all those things wrong
no wonder why they hate me now
but then kill me now
just through me out of here
no·one would ever notice i was gone
just forget me now

you should also forget me now
i’m not here to drag you down
drag you down with me
you should forget me now
don’t care about
don’t bother about me
don’t feel down because of me
i’m not supposed to be here anyway
Track Name: evaluated dreams
evaluated dreams

so, this is an end
evaluate or nothing
this is a turning page
take note or forget
this is a dream
ending
this is a heart
mending
this is a hope
this is a prayer
this is here
this is everywhere
this is a hand
faking
this is a head
breaking

so, this is an end
to me
evaluate the dreams
or get nothing
this is a start
of an end
this is the beginning
of a friend
this is a fight
learn or repeat
this is a long night
of defeat
this is no victory
but maybe
this is a victory
of this
Track Name: sea of blue
sea of blue

this pain
i can’t submit
i won’t admit
my heart’s too weak
irrationality’s inappropriate
this devotion’s dangerous
this restraint’s ridiculous
but i’m not sure
i deceive myself
i believe myself
my reason’s too strong
pensiveness’s profitable
this reticence’s rewarding
this preservation’s palpable
but my soul is crushed
my heart is burned
and my hands clutched
in dream and vision
but i dare not let go
Track Name: out of the grey
out of the grey

help
there’s a man at my door
this giant, this monster
trying to force me to open my door
and my hands are getting sweaty
and my arms are getting weak
and my legs are going tired
as i’m falling down the peak
and i don’t know who to turn to
and i don’t know who are there
but i don’t dare to find you
though you could be almost anywhere

and the monster keeps on pushing
and i’m scared to let him in
knowing what he can do to me
knowing what’ll happen if he wins
he’ll take me to a desert grey savannah
with no·one in sight
leaving me with bread and water
leaving me to fight
against no·one
against everything
leaving me to fight the devil
leaving me to fight myself

so if only i can keep him away
so if only i can stay happy
if only i stay sane
if only i can stay happy

please, somebody save me
Track Name: break my heart
break my heart

useless
waste of time
empty
empty
deep down
black and blue
far away
never stay
empty world
empty mind
empty
empty
dark and grey
goes far away
blue and black
always black
always black

hopeless
waste of time
waste of space
waste of air
waste
waste
nothing gained
always lost
grey clouds
grey clouds
nothing forward
nothing now
always behind
always behind
blue and gone
grey as sun
never red
always black
always black

endless
never·ending
space and time
flowing by
flowing by
passing to be
left away
alone
alone
never to be seen again
never again
never again
black as fire
black as roses
black as black
as black as black

cloud filled sky
passing by
ending in
ending in
dark and blue
grey and two
tears
tears
far away
alone
alone
far astray
alone
alone
gone and away
gone and stay
black and blue
and dark and grey
empty
empty
and away

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