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happily sad
04:58
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look at that sparrow
outside the window
i wonder where it hides its sorrow
it looks perfectly happy
as it flies from tree to tree
‘cause it doesn’t know about pity
and it doesn’t know about you
and me
it doesn’t know about these thoughts
unstucked
it doesn’t know about this heart
that never gets untied
so it looks perfectly happy
as it jumps from twig to twig
‘cause it doesn’t know what it is like
to miss
i wonder if a sparrow
has ever loved
if not
it must be happily sad
happy to be without
and sad to be without
maybe she’s satisfied to be without
i should be happily sad too
‘cause i have tried to love
happy, cause i have tried
and sad, cause i have tried
but the problem is
that i’ll never be satisfied
before my heart gets untied
and tied somewhere else
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2. |
implicity
06:05
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who was the slayer of my happy thoughts
who was the slayer of my smile
who was the slayer of my open heart
- somehow i think i recognize
the slayer’s style
who was the slayer of the light in my eyes
who was the slayer of my sleeps
who is to blame for the restless nights
who is to blame for my needs
did you cause this pain
or is it God that i should blame ?
no...
the slayer hides right here
and he is the reason
that i cannot see
the slayer is ....
me
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3. |
curl
07:14
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you
queen of my world
words like “i do”
i can only hurl away
‘cause i know i can’t stay
if you knew just how much
how much i miss
just one touch
just one kiss
you would be glad i’m gone
‘cause i would only embarrass you
with all the foolish things i do
you
still i can’t stop dreaming
that someday we’ll end up screaming
that we love eachother
and the will of God won’t bother
then we’ll touch
then we’ll kiss
but i know that this
is way too far out
‘cause the will of God
one cannot doubt
but still ....
if
you
the only girl
who can ever curl
around my heart
i try to forget
but the fact, that we’re forever apart
makes me burst into tears
i guess, all i want to do
is make you see a
friend in me
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4. |
occupation
03:08
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smile again for me
your lips are haunting me
you bewitch me in devotion
the gravity intensifies
as i blur
look again at me
your eyes are emptying me
you dry me out in submission
the pressure abates
i explode
charm me again
your warmth is delighting me
you immerse me in bliss
devoid of oxygene
i suffocate
approach me again
your ardour is igniting me
you shower me in fuel
the flames caress
as i scorch
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5. |
dual soul
06:30
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and i’m standing still to converse with you
my heart bursts open, my bleeding soul
this schizophrenic dream of love
my heart and my mind, your crying soul
and i pour out my heart
my hopes, my misses
and you take my hand
your kisses, your kisses
paradise is open now
i fly around your dreaming smile
your deep green eyes are open now
and i fall and drown in the abyss of your smile
i swim and dive
in love with you
curl myself around your heart
i kiss you
you open your mouth
to speak my mind
i hope for something
more than i find
and you close your eyes
you end your smile
you turn around to run away
i try to save you
i tried to save you
but fail
hopelessly i have to stop
throw away my crying heart
i have to build an arctic world
deep within my hoping heart
dreamlessly i have to die
burry my heart beneath my mind
i have to forget you
i have to forget you
i have to forget you
i have to forget you
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6. |
move alone
08:49
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move back
i’m not able to continue this
screamingly, but
i’m not yours
i have to end all of this
i have to leave you alone
move aside
i’m not able to control this
hopingly, but
i’m not your lover
i have to end all this
i have to leave you dead
move away
i’m not able to carry you
dreadfully, but
i’m not your saviour
i have to push you over
i have to hand you over
move aloof
i’m not able to help you
terribly, but
i’m not your man
i belong to someone else
i have to kneel and beg forgiveness
i have to leave you cold
push you away
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7. |
broken chair
05:00
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this ain’t fair
who kicked away my chair
i fell right through
apparently there’s nothing i can do
down here with no one
to pull me back up
i can just as well give my life up
though i’m on the floor
people believe my pretends of sitting
“who can ask for more”
one day i guess i’ll do it
without help
i’ll get up by myself
i’ll start to fix this broken chair
i’ll pick up the pieces
they are everywhere
one day it will be durable
as it was in the start
this broken ....
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8. |
ambiguity
06:56
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my abstract
covet your presence
unsophisticated joy
immediate obligingness
desire your smile
alluring beauty
seductive expression
yearn for your heart
mysterious figure
indistinct depths
long for your eyes
spontaneous love
substantial code
my logic
observe your presence
sudden inconvenience
abrupt intrusion
note your smile
inopportune distraction
perilous impression
recollect your heart
average strangeness
extraordinary generality
notice your eyes
dangerous impact
pleasant conjuration
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9. |
her
06:07
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you look so wonderful
tonight
i feel your body so close
to mine
you look right into my
.... eyes
i feel we swim away into
the night
i look into your
.... eyes
you touch my neck with
a finger
i look at my hand in your
.... hair
you whispered in my ear
“i love you”
you make me feel like
a fire
i feel my heart beat
.... fast
you take my hand very
.... softly
i kiss your finger you
smile
please God let me keep her
i don’t want to lose you
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dream
03:03
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i do not understand
why this boy like me
is wasting his time
he’s blind and cannot see
he is living his life
on a bogus dream
he is hoping and dreaming
he has always been
spending each night
by praying to God
or walking alone
pretending she’s in the dark
sitting with shining eyes
believe in happy ending
but i fear for the moment
he realizes
that it was just a dream
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11. |
dark streets
04:46
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so now i feel it struggling
so now i feel it fight
so now i feel it eating me up
so now i feel the night again
i feel shadows haunting me
through dead-end streets
coloured grey and blue with misery
with noises of melancholy
hanging in the air
the smell of pain
just running through the streets
with shadows
again and again
‘cause i miss you like it’s driving me insane
even when i’m with you
shadows comes creeping in
and whispers unconfidence
in your name
please let me hear you’re missing me
let me taste you’re missing me
i wanna smell
that you love me
‘cause shadows whispers that you don’t do
and you don’t care
so i need you to wish
that i am there
to love you
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12. |
pain level
10:43
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winter ....
a dark and lonely night
- i was walking
- but we were together
walking side by side
i remember my heart
as light as a feather
though it was cold
i never realised it
‘cause i had never been told
and i had your warmth by my side
i had closed my eyes
‘cause if i opened them
i knew my dream would die
you put your hand into mine
- it was so warm
and i wanted it to last
to the end of time
suddenly i opened my eyes
and i saw a dark empty spot
making fun of me, by my side
i looked down, surprised
‘cause in my left hand
i held the right one
- another piece of my sanity
was gone
bitter tears
ran down my cheek
they washed away
every snowflake ....
when i recognized it was snowing
i cried even more
‘cause so it had been fake before
when i thought she touched my skin
i cried all the way home
and when i got inside
- they saw my red eyes
“anything wrong” they said
i said “no
it’s just the cold wind
that makes my eyes red”
this was last winter
- another one is coming up
maybe this winter’ll be lost
into your heart
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