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swan song prologue
09:44
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2. |
dilapidation
11:05
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deep flesh wound in my heart is open now
absorbing the eyes in my heart are open now
riveting the smile in my heart is open now
flow in my veins
as tickeling pain
my heart again is open now
softly the hands in my heart as i smile again
seductive the kiss in my heart as i live again
alluring the voice in my heart as i drift again
stir up the hole
in my dilapidated soul
my heart as i burn again
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3. |
reptile philosophy
11:05
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i never wanted this
i never really wanted this
what good is isolation
when i am longing for communication
and what good is communication
when i suffocate
and i never wanted this
i never wanted any of this
i never really wanted this
yet it is all i want but this
intensity encycles me and i
suffocate in choking air
too close too intimate too strong
i struggle to be free but it
kills me cause i want it to be and i
suffocate i
suffocate
i can’t bear the thought to leave it alone
and i can’t bear the thought to carry on
cause by time it will be stronger
and by time it will be closer
and i
will slowly suffocate
i thought that step by step
i’d get used to it
cause i really wanted it
i really wanted all of it
that was really what i wanted
but i was wrong
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4. |
away in water
09:12
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i dreamed
i danced
to caress
to kiss
and attracted
softly raving
on water
to you
i held
i slept
to be
to live
and focused
noisely smiling
with water
on you
i fell
i died
to care
to hate
and abstract
painfully swimming
away in water
from you
i end
i stop
to caress
too cryptic
and abstracted
violently diving
away under water
from you
i scream
i hurt
to leave
to neglect
and bleeding
in drains
away as water
without you
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5. |
the third party
11:07
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in my silent being
- sometimes a violent riot of colours
mysterious and bright
sometimes a pretty
calm transparency
of colours like water
shining wonderfully
in moonlight
i isolate myself
because toys from the third party
misconstrue the water colours
everywhere i come
as a dim image
as a faint being
instead of a floating transparency
because reflected in a toy ideology
any non-vicarious being
is a twisted one
their debasement makes me unhappy
they always try re-dying me
in unnatural colours
and they are all dying to see
my picture blur and disappear
in order to shape me as a toy
and join their party
so they shout all kinds of colours at me
all some i’d rather be without
they scar my face
my being is cut
my self is hurt
as the colours are thrown at me
first the ignorant green
so i forget what i used to see
and learn how i should have seen
then a standard grey
so i forget what i used to say
and learn what i really should say
finally a flimsy red
so i forget myself
forget all joy
and learn how to be a toy
how to be like them
so in the end
i always see a common generality
on an unknown figure
in the mirror
but the toys
clap their plastic hands in hilarity
because the colours matches their ideology
i isolate my self
because the toy majority
can’t live with the colours
of my reality
in the name of silence
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6. |
about the sea
11:15
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and forever
shaped as eternity
you were
however wonderful before
ten times as wonderful
as the reality you are in
but however much i want this
it is not true
ruined by travesty
so however much i tell myself
about the lie that i am in
i speak coded about the sea
as i notice
how you notice me
performed by the lie
i am in
because of your reality
it is a lie
and by time as i explain to you
about the sea
the room where we are
caves in
turns blue
fading grey
inside the reality you are
and ruined anyway
and as we both reach understanding
you said ‘so this is the sea’
your wondering eyes
melted in with anything i trust
as we understood it all
the more i wanted to fall
deep in
but however perfectly understanding we will reach
it will never happen
for i am the lie
vs your reality
so i walked away
as my world caved in
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7. |
swan song epilogue
10:30
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